About

You can call me Angel. Angel Fractured. I also go by Angel Flatley.

Twenty-six, female. Literature nerd and film buff. Besides discussing literature and films, I also enjoy talking about philosophy, idealism, history, and culture. Sarcastic sense of humor. Aspiring writer who dabbles in both novels and short stories.

This blog is a documentation of how I am coping with mental health issues such as depression, social anxiety, and generalized anxiety. I have been diagnosed with those three conditions, but overall the professionals talk about my situation pretty hazily. I may have a personality disorder, or I may not, according to what I’ve been told . . .

My issues are not easy to categorize though they no doubt exist. For this reason, I believe that our mental health is probably more complex than officially outlined.

This blog’s purpose is to present various perspectives, both positive and negative. Consider it my mental health diary. Whatever I write, the emotions and ideas are raw, no holds barred. Since creative writing is important to me, it will make appearances here as well. I will also occasionally share random musings if they should strike my fancy.

If you’d like to get in touch with me, feel free to contact me at angelfractured@gmail.com.

Gravatar image is from here.

July 2012 Update: I have been recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder and perhaps post-traumatic stress disorder. I’ve had diagnoses of social anxiety disorder and generalized anxiety disorder for quite some time.

72 responses to “About

  1. “My issues are not easy to categorize though they no doubt exist. For this reason, I believe that our mental health is probably way more complex than officially outlined.”

    Brilliant. I agree with you completely after years in treatment for a host of diagnoses. I look forward to exploring your blog, and to your continued posts.

  2. I also have been diagnosed with depression, generalized anxiety and Bipolar II. I am glad to have found your blog and would like to follow your journey through your blog. I like what you said here: “For this reason, I believe that our mental health is probably way more complex than officially outlined.” So true. I don’t even understand myself much less the ‘professionals’ that are treating me. Makes me wonder if there is much hope for a complete cure…now here I go being all dopey πŸ™‚ Looking forward to reading more!

    • Thanks! Glad you like the blog! I’m not sure if I believe in a β€œcomplete” cure . . . but maybe that’s just because I find it hard to envision. I definitely believe that there is hope, though.

  3. If you read the official deffintions of any “personality disorder” (or anything like that) you will notice that you exhibit some of its symptoms. That goes for ALL the so-called disorders. Psychology is a vague “science” that isn’t worth wasting time dwelling on. The human mind is infinitely more complex than any person can grasp, let alone generalize about.
    Don’t let small minded people tell you you are something because of one or two “symptoms;” it’s just another form of control and saying “I’m better than you because I don’t have such-and-such a disorder.”
    I hate psychology…
    In any case, don’t let those shabuire tell you about YOU. “You” is a fluid concept that cannot be defined.
    Cuyir Jahaala

    • I do think there is some merit to psychology. Of course it’s rather vague, and it doesn’t even begin to touch the complexities of the human psyche. (Wow. No pun intended there.) But if one is having a hard time coping with life, then psychology can provide helpful tools. It won’t necessarily totally fix everything, but it can help. I used to be quite anti-psychology, but then I had a period of time during which I needed help. Even if I were to say I had a mental illness, I wouldn’t let that define me by any means. That is not the sum total of what I am, just a possible description of a piece of the puzzle. In any case, I actually prefer to call them “mental issues.” (Perhaps I’ll write a post someday to explain why that is.) Though I am “fractured” to an extent, I am not defective, and a diagnosis wouldn’t mean that, either. An interesting thing is that my therapist did tell me that diagnoses are basically meaningless. People use them to try to understand themselves, but they don’t fully capture everything about people.

      • Yes, it can help. But anyone with a basic understanding of the human mind can do what a therapist does; it just requires patience and understanding, along with a little knowledge of who it is you’re helping. All that stuff they teach people in psychology now-a-days is, in my onpinion, actually deteremental and makes it harder to help others.
        But what do I know? I never went to school for psychology (sarcasm there, we tend to place too much emphasis on “authority” and stuff, but that’s something else entirely)

        • Ha, I definitely agree with you about authority. I feel that relying too much on authority can keep people from thinking for themselves. In my opinion, psychology taught in school is probably helpful in some instances but not in others.

          I think that empathy would be key for a good therapist to have. Empathy and understanding are actually quite rare qualities, in my experience. Perhaps those two things and patience are all that a therapist would need, but those qualities, together, are less common than one would think.

  4. Hi, I just wanted to say thank you for the blog subscription. I’m very flattered and it means so much when people do so–although they might be more off balanced than me.

    I’ve got you Bookmarked so hopefully I can come back and read some more. I’m in sorry shape for my blogroll, reading people, any subscriptions. ACK! Still, thank you very much.

    Take care,
    PA

  5. The Quiet Borderline

    I have nominated you to receive the Liebster Blog Award! You can claim it here: http://quietbpd.wordpress.com/2012/03/07/liebster-blog-awards/

  6. Mind if I tag along for this journey too?

  7. I look forward to more musings on the difficult navigation of mental health issues. A very personal but important journey to be sure.

    • Thank you. It’s interesting how people with mental health issues can relate to each other yet experience things so differently because, as you say, it’s uniquely personal.

  8. clownonfire

    Angel, I had put an x on all chain-letter awards, but The Very Inspiring Blogger one got to me, and I thought you deserved it too:
    http://clownonfire.wordpress.com/the-awards-circus
    Congrats,
    COF

  9. boldkevin

    Hi Angel,

    A little while back I thought it might be really good if we had a recognizable community of writers who, as part of their writing, write about mental health and mental well-being.

    So, being the kind of person who figures having ideas is on thing but you then have to do something about it, I started up the Mental Health Writers’s Guild and being familiar with your writing I really would like and really do feel you deserve to be a part of it.

    It’s nothing special really I just figure that through it such things as support and encouragment as well as comnpetitions and the such could be offered to members.

    The address for it, so that you can check it out and find out more about it, is as follows: http://mentalhealthwritersguild.wordpress.com/ and as i say I really do feel you should and deserve to be a part of it,

    Let me know what you think πŸ™‚
    Kind Regards.

    Kevin.

  10. Hello! You are given Versatile Blogger at http://nizamhappieboyz.wordpress.com/2012/04/04/one-more-versatile/
    Congrats and keep blogging!

  11. Bourbon

    Hey Angel. Thanks for the follow. I’m going to follow you right back if that’s okay! πŸ™‚ B

  12. HI Aegel,
    Just to let you know that I nominated you for an awrd today. I hope that is ok as I really do feel you have earned the nomination. You can find your nomination here. http://voicesofglass.com/2012/06/12/a-special-award/ Hope you are well,
    Kind Regards,
    Kevin.

  13. bpshielsy

    Hi I’ve nominated you for The Versatile Blogger award.
    http://thebipolarplace1.wordpress.com/2012/06/24/another-one/

  14. I’ve tagged you back!

    http://nothinginmynoggin.wordpress.com/2012/07/02/finally-some-fun-a-game-of-tag/

    Ps I understand if you don’t feel like answering more questions! πŸ˜‰

  15. Can’t wait to read your answers!

  16. Hi. I have nominated you for the Sunshine Award because I love your blog. Check it out on my post http://infinitesadnessorwhat.wordpress.com/2012/07/10/an-ungrateful-cow-maybe-thats-unfair-on-the-cow/
    Congratulations!
    Cate πŸ˜›

  17. I see you have already received so many awards. Add me to your list of fans. I mentioned your blog on my blog and gave you an award but you probably already have it!

    • Cool. I’ll try to answer the questions in my next post, which will probably be after I work on the choose-your-own adventure for a little bit. So, sometime in the next few days.

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  19. The Quiet Borderline (back in hospital)

    I have awarded you with the Strong Person Award. An award I made myself and has been a pleasure to award all of you well deserving people.

    Feel free to collect your award here: http://quietbpd.wordpress.com/2012/08/19/strong-person-award/

    All the best,

    The Quiet Borderline
    http://quietbpd.wordpress.com/

  20. It’s so nice to see people openly discussing mental illness. Maybe one day we can remove the stigma. I have depression. I talk about it some on my blog under the Down in Wonderland posts. But it is great to see a blog focused on it. I also think a sense of humor is a great coping device. Since you’ve seen my blog, you know I cope a lot. Anyway, round about way of saying nice post and cool blog.

    • Thanks. I feel like to help reduce the stigma I should stop being anonymous, but I haven’t been brave enough to try that yet. Besides, I’ve realized I like the freedom of writing whatever without being worried of what someone I know in real life will think of it. (Although I am also paranoid that some of the content here could be recognizable to someone I know . . . )

      Sometimes I find my situations amusing, hence the title of the blog. I can find myself stuck between wondering whether I should cry or laugh. Or maybe I’ll even do both. I have a somewhat dry and overall strange sense of humor, and I’m not sure whether people can tell I’m joking sometimes. In real life they often can’t, anyway. And that was a lot of rambling to say I agree.

      • People think the same of me. I wish there were a sarcasm font. I understand not giving your real name. Shockingly, my real name is not Alice (sarcasm font). Crying and laughing both work, though laughing does not give you massive headaches. This is why I love the internet. Having a place to GO to, that’s always open, when no one else is around? Priceless.

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  22. Hi Angel, I have just awarded you the One Lovely Blog Award. Check it out on my link http://infinitesadnessorhope.wordpress.com/2012/12/19/belated-acknowledgments-and-thanks/ CONGRATULATIONS!!! Cate

  23. Hello, Angel! I know you are focused on your novel right now (which is great), and I don’t want to take you from that, but I do want to let you know that there is an official Blog For Mental Health 2013 thing going on over at Canvas. I’ve pledged you, along with everyone else involved. As I said, I know you’re focusing on what matters most right now, but hey, there are still another 11-plus months left to blog in 2013, right? πŸ˜‰

    I hope everything is going well for you!

  24. I’m in the therapy/social work business and I see how freely and carelessly diagnoses are thrown around. I would try not to get stuck on these labels. Your love of writing, philosophy and art, and especially of humor, are good paths to take no matter what the diagnosis.

  25. Hey, I recently discovered your blog and think you’re great. I hope this is ok with you: http://sabotageandoffense.wordpress.com/2013/06/15/blogging-for-mental-health/

  26. overcoming depression

    Hi Angel,
    Wish you good luck. Keep writing; that is a great way to understand oneself better. I think that you are right to say that ” I believe that our mental health is probably more complex than officially outlined.” Looking forward for your updates.
    Hug,
    Niranjan

  27. Hi Angel!

    I’m mentally ill (20+ years of chronic major depression/clinical depression and anxiety). I’m 38 now and have only just discovered that I was mentally ill, this year, after feeling completely empty and suicidal. I contacted a psychiatrist and will likely be taking the pills I’m now taking for the rest of my life. And I’m becoming OK with that, because I’m no longer in freefall and I’m developing a new perspective on my life.

    Among many other things, I’m a literature and film geek too. :o) And I run, run, run (and swim a bit) to keep me strong, because none of us can expect pills alone to make us ‘better’.

    Take care, Angel! \(^-^)/

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