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My Mind Is Bound to Ramble

I can’t believe how long it’s been since my last post. Time has been going by much too quickly.

I finished Season 8 of Supernatural. I loved the finale, but there are a few thoughts I had about it . . . but I won’t waste space here rambling about something most readers don’t know about. Plus, if you ever do watch the show, I don’t want to spoil it too much.

I’ve been working a lot on my Supernatural fanfiction story. I have actually posted it online somewhere, but it’s a bit embarrassing, so I’m not going to link to it or anything. Funny thing is that this story has helped me get my creative energy back, while my short stories didn’t. With the latter, I’d struggle with what to say. Part of it could be because I’m not as concerned about the quality of the fanfiction. Don’t get me wrong, I have a standard to maintain, but the other stories require more attention to polishing, especially if I want to try to submit them somewhere. Except I don’t even know who the audience could be for my latest short stories. I’ll keep pondering the matter, though.

I’ve finally started editing my novel, working on a chapter a day. That pace might change once I get further into the story because the chapters get longer. Well, toward the very end they get almost ridiculously short. So far, most of my editing has consisted of deleting things that are irrelevant or rewriting sentence that don’t make sense. I have a hard copy I wrote notes on, and I follow along with it, but I also go with my instinct at the moment. I’ll read a few paragraphs then look at what I wrote on the hard copy. Oftentimes, the phrasing I want to change is the same. What I want to change it to is as well. I like reading both copies as I go through the story, getting two perspectives (current and past) on the initial draft.

There have been some things I’ve been meaning to write about, like therapy, or Asperger’s, or empathy. Maybe one day I’ll get the motivation to write those posts.

Speaking of therapy, my therapist is moving to another practice. Luckily, I get to follow her. Problem is, that practice is at least 30 minutes away. But I really do think she’s the best therapist I’ve had so far, which is why I’ve been meaning to write about sessions with her. I don’t want to gamble anymore with the therapist bin; it could be years until I find another one I like, if ever. So that’s why I’m going to continue to see her.

When she told me she was leaving the place I currently go to, I teared up because the news was unexpected. More so because I didn’t want to look for another therapist. She asked how I was feeling about the situation, and I said I just felt like I wanted to give up rather than do another search. My one thought was to ask if I could see her at the other practice, but bringing up the idea made me nervous, almost shaky with panic. After me talking about how anxious I felt about what I wanted to say, I eventually made the request. I don’t know why bringing up the idea made me that panicky. I’ve revealed other things before that should’ve been more likely to induce anxiety. It probably goes back to my fear of rejection and blah blah blah.

Anyway, at the current place, she had to make sure I could get approved for meds only. Because apparently they don’t like you seeing a pdoc there if you’re not seeing one of their therapists. I was afraid of how things would go, but it seems they’re working out on that front.

Well, that concludes today’s ramble.


Filed under General Musing

Writing Process

Okay, I pledged to myself I wouldn’t write on my blog until I’d caught up on other blogs. I was planning not to write anything until Friday. But I decided I needed a me night, and this involves me doing what I want when I want. I have a few thoughts about conventional writing advice, and I want to discuss them.

Many writing advice books and websites tell you to develop your characters before you start writing. This involves coming up with as many details as you can about them and knowing practically every obscure thing such as what their favorite Goldfish flavor is. Supposedly, if you don’t do this, then you don’t have a firm grasp of who your character is. Ergo, you’re a hack.

But is it really necessary to do that? Am I a hack because I don’t do such things?

I understand the point of it. You don’t want your characters to do something, well, out of character after all. But I find that I just can’t do it. I get stuck. I get bored. I feel like I should be writing the story already.

So I don’t do that. Not much, anyway. I write down who the characters are and make rudimentary sketches of them, but nothing detailed.

Is it not legitimate to discover who your characters are by just seeing how they act in the story? I don’t mean just having them do whatever it takes to advance the plot. You’d want to maintain consistency. But isn’t that how we develop and demonstrate our personalities in the first place? By how we behave in certain situations? And people are often contradictory. So is doing something out of character really out of character?

I like to learn about my characters as I’m writing. I hope that doesn’t make me a hack.


Filed under Writing